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2013 / 06 / 04 ( Tue )
Thought I'd post a quick update here since I haven't stepped in in what, 6 MONTHS
So I've finally started working.
It's actually.. pretty fun.
But I've currently got no life whatsoever.
Typical I guess..
But seriously, this job's so busy you can hardly get busier.
I never thought I'd be OT-ing every single day till I arrive home after my dad does.
Shall talk more about it when I feel like it..
hopefully not 6 months later lolol
2012 / 11 / 11 ( Sun )
SMTOWN SG is in less than 2 weeks omg.
Am just praying really hard that the rumor about the suspension of Eunhyuk's activities isn't true...
And 2 weeks after smtown, JAPAN! 8DDD
First trip with suyu, can't wait
2012 / 10 / 26 ( Fri )
Been wanting to post this since July but, as usual, kept dragging so... ._.
Well at least I tweeted about it :D in real time:
OMFG RESULTS RELEASED. ALL >70% LET ME CRY ( ; _ ; )
posted at 03:29:36
SERIOUSLY OMG. ;_; Months of hard work and sleepless nights. Having dreams of not doing well and constantly worrying. All over. <3
posted at 03:33:41
Major assignment that I made a dream a month ago that I'd get 13/50 was actually 47.5/50. (;A;) omg how.
posted at 03:40:01
Sorry if I sound boastful, cause I'm just seriously relieved after worrying for months and honestly thinking I wouldn't make it through. ;_;
posted at 03:43:46
Feel like crying my tears of relief to my sleeping bro.
posted at 03:46:27
It was really hell.
Most of the tons of presentations, research papers and other assignments throughout the sem actually went pretty well now that I come to think of it but was still in doubt of even passing probably because it was the final sem. I've never worked so hard before ever or been under that much stress. Even lashed out on my beloved bro. And yeah I actually made dreams about my major assignment for Business in Au (which was the one I was most worried about) that I'd get 13/50 which would mean failing the overall unit. I was that inconfident so the results really came as a shock, not a pleasant surprise, but shock.
So much happened within the last couple of months since I graduated but I feel so unaccomplished orz
Now in job hunting hell and while I seem to be having the time of my life, it sure doesn't feel good to be applying and applying for jobs to get hardly any response. Feeling so unwanted (;A;)
Well anw, main reason I dropped by today 8D
Went for the first drive in it today! All went well other than my lack of self-confidence. Can't wait to get used to it. v
2012 / 10 / 20 ( Sat )
My bro all grown up and dating omg ;_;
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY
2012 / 06 / 22 ( Fri )
The way you end with "love you" at the end of your texts/e-mails/phone calls always make me feel very grateful for your presence. Your simple kisses on my head that you've been doing since as long as I can remember never fail to silently give me the strength that I need.
Thanks for always being there for us. Typical words of thanks, but not said for the sake of saying, but I really mean it.
Most importantly, how I don't APPEAR to be returning the love... has been bothering me since forever. I never return your kisses. Nor your hugs. And I have absolutely no idea how I should strip myself of my pride and say that "I love you" that you always say to me but I can never bring myself to return verbally.
Till the day I manage to pluck up my courage, I honestly hope you know that we really do love you.
2012 / 06 / 21 ( Thu )
And I didn't post this here 2+ months ago,
My 2 current loves.
What is self motivation and where do I download it
2012 / 05 / 21 ( Mon )
And for the RL side, I'm struggling my ass off with this friggin Master's that up till now, I still have no idea what made me do it, and why I haven't died yet.
I don't regret my decision in doing it, but I think I rushed into it a little to quickly.. since it was a last-minute decision when I couldn't go to Saitama anymore.
Though this one year so far gave me the opportunity to realize a lot about myself.
I have so little self-motivation it can't feed an ant.
But, I also realized I really hate doing things halfway. ←so much so I often get shocked by myself.
Yah so basically I don't like giving up but I don't have the self-motivation to carry on.
Now to go back to assignmenting that I've been doing so much of I'm getting so used to waking up to it, spending the day, night and morning with it, and sleeping to it. Shall be back in July (hopefully) when I'm done with this hell of a sem.
What I once called "The Evil Side".
2012 / 05 / 21 ( Mon )
Just dumping some thoughts that aren't worth reading.
Suddenly listening to FRIENDS by KAT-TUN & NEWS makes me feel young again.
I may be into k-pop now but I'd never, ever, regret my 7-8 years of being a KAT-TUN fangirl. (Not like I'm saying I'm not one right now, I'm in a confused state)
The memories I had, at the concerts or simply how I relate to the songs or how the songs helped me through some happenings in life.
Kame will still be someone I really respect and look up to. His thoughts, his behavior, his words and all. I don't often feel this way towards people, especially idols.
I love SJ & k-pop, but somehow I don't feel even half of the love I had for KAT-TUN. The age? Was young and ignorant? Well I guess it makes a difference watching a topless idol when I'm 15-16 and when I'm turning 23. But that also means that, the fact that I liked KAT-TUN through the peak of my teenage years gave me the chance to love them to the fullest. (Though the lack of freedom unlike how I can actually chase SJ around the world now if I wanted to)
And I'm not in denial and saying this as an excuse to move on in life or to make myself feel better. There's no need for that since it's not like my idolizing bothers anyone anyway. Am just writing this so I remember how I'm feeling towards both worlds at the moment.
I don't call myself an ELF, and it's not like I wish to be one.
Reason? I only LOVE a third of the group. (I like some other members, but it stops there) So, yah it feels damn good to finally not be a really hardcore fan of anyone. Well I like SJ enough to go for as many concerts as I can and watch their videos whenever I'm free and constantly update myself with their news but no, it ain't hardcore. I've experienced hardcore, was an awesome experience to remember but not to experience again lol.
See. If you read all that, you just wasted half a minute of your life. My apologies. Now to move on.
2011 / 12 / 23 ( Fri )
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY BOY!
2011 / 11 / 07 ( Mon )
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOYYYYY!!!!!♥
Yet another year! OMG YOU'RE FIFTEEN!!! DDD8
LOVE YOU!!!♥ CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU IN 2~3 WEEKS!♥
2011 / 10 / 29 ( Sat )
update on life.
Been so friggin busy with assignments followed by exams prep
Got nothing else happening in life orz.
Can't wait for the K-pop fest in Sydney in exactly 2 weeks!!
but I gonna think about the exams I have before and after that T-T
Finance on the Monday after the con FML ;A;
All ready for the con 8D hope the words make sense lol
Remove the top layer and it's a CNBLUE version 8D
oh and MAMA!!!
AM SO THANKFUL I MANAGED TO GET TICKETS. Thanks to my mum
Didn't manage to get T02-06 but I'll settle for my T11 :DD
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET FTI BE THERE 8DDD /goes on knees
2011 / 09 / 24 ( Sat )
Since 3 weeks or so ago my sis and I have been planning to surprise our parents by coming home without telling them in advance.
Arrival into SG at 8am this morning. Mum had facial appointment so we decided to go home, bathe and get out before she gets back in the afternoon and wander around the island till 10pm (yes despite being severely sleep-deprived) and show up at Seletar Country Club where my bro's having bowling practice, so we could surprise both my mum and dad at the same time.
till my bro told us yesterday that my dad would be on a business trip to KL till tomorrow.
so we decided to just go look for my mum at her club at Novena at 3pm, the time she NORMALLY finishes.
We touched down at 8am, went home to bathe and had an awesome brunch at Wild Honey afterwhich my sis went to have a haircut cause we still had time.
At 2:30pm, sis was done and we were heading off to Novena, we both got a call from a private number.
who else would call the both of us.
AT OUR SG NUMBER DDD8
Decided to call the club to check if my mum was still there.
Mum called us using her handphone.
OTL. all over.
just like that ;A;
guess what gave us away?
OUR fKing SHOES AT THE DOOR.
Didn't cross my mind at all but we didn't bother clearing our tracks cause we thought we'd have met by the time she got back.
But she apparently finished at noon. FML.
we were thinking, oh well at least we could still surprise our dad who's still in KL.
But guess what,
MY MUM CALLED MY DAD AND SPILLED EVERYTHING ;A;
We just wasted AUD1000 each coming back for nothing and sacrificing time to do our assignments ;_;
;_; ;_; ;_;
to think on the bright side,
IT FEELS REAL GOOD TO BE HOME.♥
srsly we've never felt this way before despite the countless times we came back from long school terms in Perth or Japan. It wasn't like we were really homesick, but the feeling of
"ah♥ Home, where it's clean.♥"
now to enjoy the remaining slightly more than a week...
rushing the assignment OTL.
I'm sorry to all I don't get to meet up with this time m(. .)m
Trip's TOO short and having an assignment to have to finish at the same time... DX
We'll meet in November♥