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2017 / 10 / 02 ( Mon )
I really don't know
2017 / 10 / 01 ( Sun )
2017 / 09 / 18 ( Mon )
2017 / 09 / 08 ( Fri )
2013 / 06 / 04 ( Tue )
Thought I'd post a quick update here since I haven't stepped in in what, 6 MONTHS
So I've finally started working.
It's actually.. pretty fun.
But I've currently got no life whatsoever.
Typical I guess..
But seriously, this job's so busy you can hardly get busier.
I never thought I'd be OT-ing every single day till I arrive home after my dad does.
Shall talk more about it when I feel like it..
hopefully not 6 months later lolol
2012 / 11 / 11 ( Sun )
SMTOWN SG is in less than 2 weeks omg.
Am just praying really hard that the rumor about the suspension of Eunhyuk's activities isn't true...
And 2 weeks after smtown, JAPAN! 8DDD
First trip with suyu, can't wait
2012 / 10 / 26 ( Fri )
Been wanting to post this since July but, as usual, kept dragging so... ._.
Well at least I tweeted about it :D in real time:
OMFG RESULTS RELEASED. ALL >70% LET ME CRY ( ; _ ; )
posted at 03:29:36
SERIOUSLY OMG. ;_; Months of hard work and sleepless nights. Having dreams of not doing well and constantly worrying. All over. <3
posted at 03:33:41
Major assignment that I made a dream a month ago that I'd get 13/50 was actually 47.5/50. (;A;) omg how.
posted at 03:40:01
Sorry if I sound boastful, cause I'm just seriously relieved after worrying for months and honestly thinking I wouldn't make it through. ;_;
posted at 03:43:46
Feel like crying my tears of relief to my sleeping bro.
posted at 03:46:27
It was really hell.
Most of the tons of presentations, research papers and other assignments throughout the sem actually went pretty well now that I come to think of it but was still in doubt of even passing probably because it was the final sem. I've never worked so hard before ever or been under that much stress. Even lashed out on my beloved bro. And yeah I actually made dreams about my major assignment for Business in Au (which was the one I was most worried about) that I'd get 13/50 which would mean failing the overall unit. I was that inconfident so the results really came as a shock, not a pleasant surprise, but shock.
So much happened within the last couple of months since I graduated but I feel so unaccomplished orz
Now in job hunting hell and while I seem to be having the time of my life, it sure doesn't feel good to be applying and applying for jobs to get hardly any response. Feeling so unwanted (;A;)
Well anw, main reason I dropped by today 8D
Went for the first drive in it today! All went well other than my lack of self-confidence. Can't wait to get used to it. v
2012 / 10 / 20 ( Sat )
My bro all grown up and dating omg ;_;
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY
2012 / 06 / 22 ( Fri )
The way you end with "love you" at the end of your texts/e-mails/phone calls always make me feel very grateful for your presence. Your simple kisses on my head that you've been doing since as long as I can remember never fail to silently give me the strength that I need.
Thanks for always being there for us. Typical words of thanks, but not said for the sake of saying, but I really mean it.
Most importantly, how I don't APPEAR to be returning the love... has been bothering me since forever. I never return your kisses. Nor your hugs. And I have absolutely no idea how I should strip myself of my pride and say that "I love you" that you always say to me but I can never bring myself to return verbally.
Till the day I manage to pluck up my courage, I honestly hope you know that we really do love you.
2012 / 06 / 21 ( Thu )
And I didn't post this here 2+ months ago,
My 2 current loves.
What is self motivation and where do I download it
2012 / 05 / 21 ( Mon )
And for the RL side, I'm struggling my ass off with this friggin Master's that up till now, I still have no idea what made me do it, and why I haven't died yet.
I don't regret my decision in doing it, but I think I rushed into it a little to quickly.. since it was a last-minute decision when I couldn't go to Saitama anymore.
Though this one year so far gave me the opportunity to realize a lot about myself.
I have so little self-motivation it can't feed an ant.
But, I also realized I really hate doing things halfway. ←so much so I often get shocked by myself.
Yah so basically I don't like giving up but I don't have the self-motivation to carry on.
Now to go back to assignmenting that I've been doing so much of I'm getting so used to waking up to it, spending the day, night and morning with it, and sleeping to it. Shall be back in July (hopefully) when I'm done with this hell of a sem.
What I once called "The Evil Side".
2012 / 05 / 21 ( Mon )
Just dumping some thoughts that aren't worth reading.
Suddenly listening to FRIENDS by KAT-TUN & NEWS makes me feel young again.
I may be into k-pop now but I'd never, ever, regret my 7-8 years of being a KAT-TUN fangirl. (Not like I'm saying I'm not one right now, I'm in a confused state)
The memories I had, at the concerts or simply how I relate to the songs or how the songs helped me through some happenings in life.
Kame will still be someone I really respect and look up to. His thoughts, his behavior, his words and all. I don't often feel this way towards people, especially idols.
I love SJ & k-pop, but somehow I don't feel even half of the love I had for KAT-TUN. The age? Was young and ignorant? Well I guess it makes a difference watching a topless idol when I'm 15-16 and when I'm turning 23. But that also means that, the fact that I liked KAT-TUN through the peak of my teenage years gave me the chance to love them to the fullest. (Though the lack of freedom unlike how I can actually chase SJ around the world now if I wanted to)
And I'm not in denial and saying this as an excuse to move on in life or to make myself feel better. There's no need for that since it's not like my idolizing bothers anyone anyway. Am just writing this so I remember how I'm feeling towards both worlds at the moment.
I don't call myself an ELF, and it's not like I wish to be one.
Reason? I only LOVE a third of the group. (I like some other members, but it stops there) So, yah it feels damn good to finally not be a really hardcore fan of anyone. Well I like SJ enough to go for as many concerts as I can and watch their videos whenever I'm free and constantly update myself with their news but no, it ain't hardcore. I've experienced hardcore, was an awesome experience to remember but not to experience again lol.
See. If you read all that, you just wasted half a minute of your life. My apologies. Now to move on.